When I was little and playing with barbies, I wanted to grow up and be the best secretary ever. In high school I wanted to get my degree in Psychology and help people. In college I realized I had enough crazy people in my life (self included) and maybe this wasn’t the best degree to pursue. Pursue it I did and then I used that Psychology degree in the business world.
This Monday I got the phone call that my position was being eliminated at my part-time job.
When I moved to Florida a year ago, my hours were reduced at the-company-that-shall-not-be-named. This was a blessing at the time. It gave me the time to start my Jewelry business, set myself up online, deal with a difficult relocation, begin to put myself out there and market (a truly frightful thing).
My job title was changed after over 7 years as a Company Director. I became an Adviser.
This week I went from Adviser to Unnecessary.
February would have marked my 9th year with the-company-that-shall-not-be-named. No severance was offered. No two weeks notice. No consideration to the time of year. No phone call from those I had guided in building a successful company. No reflections over the sadness when we watched it slowly deflate. Actually I didn’t even get notified by my boss, just a call from HR. It was a sharp reminder of how many employees I was forced to lay off in so many jobs over so many years. That weighs on a person’s soul.
Every major change in my life has required me to step back, absorb, accept, grab my husband’s (or my Mom’s) hand and move forward.
So on Monday, I sat back, took a deep breath and grabbed my husband’s hand. There were some tears. 9 years is a long time to dedicate to any relationship. To be swept aside without consideration hurt a bit.
My husband took me out to “celebrate”. He was adamant we look at this as the beginning of a new life without the leftover stresses from our old life.
So Tuesday I woke up and it was a bit easier.
And then my husband notified me of my promotion. No longer was I an Adviser. I was CEO, CFO, COO, Owner and President of my own company. After so many years of watching the revolving door for those same positions at my employer, I was not sure this was a good thing. I just liked the title Owner. As an owner, no one but the government can tell me what goals to pursue.
All those years of doing the work of others. Well it paid off. My company has me. The-company-that-shall-not-be-named will move on and so will I.
So in 2014, I have goals that won’t have to be accomplished in my spare time. I have all the time I need to do what I need. I have all the tools I need. I have all the support that I need. I will keep evolving.
Now I just need more beads to accomplish this!
So, this too shall pass. What will be will be. Now more time to bead!